T I M E

The other day I found a book I had written in almost a year ago. This particular night I had written was one of the hardest nights I've experienced in my life. It was the strangest feeling though, opening it back up, because I felt like I was reading someone elses intimate journal...someone elses desperate and uncontrollable heartache. And I was heart broken for her because I could relate to everything she was saying--but the crazy part was, it wasn't me anymore. 

TIME. 

I often say I don't like time because it goes by too quickly and all of the sudden a year has passed and my nieces are huge and I'm almost 26 and off my parents insurance...but time, has healed me. Time has given me back my life. A year ago I was empty and lonely and embarrassed and confused. A year ago I was defeated, had no passion left in me and felt like my life was over. And I can't even tell you when it happened. But I'm just not those things anymore. 

Do you ever get in your head a little too much and start to feel sorry for yourself? The other day I started thinking about my life this past year in all of its absolute unrealness, and I actually tried to make myself feel sorry for me! Because that was a whole lot for a little girl to handle--but I couldn't. I couldn't even muster up the sadness. So I laughed instead. And I said thanks to God for making me a strong girl. And for giving me a second chance at life and happiness. And I said thanks to time, for the first time, for passing by quickly.

There are still so many things that I haven't got right and things about me that could be tweaked for the better, but I feel like my soul has changed. Life is too short to spend it any other way but happy and grateful for the fact that we get to live it. Life is absolutely amazing. I hope that we can all remember that. That life is not only meant to endured but to be enjoyed. That change is possible. And that time can and will heal us. Along with our Savior Jesus Christ, whose love, mercy and kindness are beyond our comprehension. Yet, they are all encompassing and there is no one excluded from basking in His everlasting source of sunshine. 
   

To life.